Indian Summer

Uh, I've painting with the colors of the wind I Took so many L's Cause I don't know how to win Where to begin? I'll say Indian Summer Word to my Mother I tried to stay away from her Say what you want, this isn't out on a limb I've been taken through trouble waters Cause my foes couldn't swim So I watch them all drown As their lights grow dim So many people are dead to me Why is this life so grim? Uh, I'm not sociable I'm Unapproachable They say I'm too emotional Damn it's that noticeable? In Red October, I sold my Soul in Seoul I had to buy it back I felt I was losing control, yeah Even though I haven't been acting right The Medium told my mother Teddy's rooting from the afterlife When Rose called me I cried for like 20 minutes, damn And then I dried my eyes, and carried on, I had to finish, Yo I'd never throw a stone, And hide my hand If I got caught, red handed Then I'd face em, head on like man, Yo There's consequences, yeah I understand And all the bad things they're wishing on me was part of God's plan, Word Heading in the wrong direction I had to switch paths I found myself dealing with black magic and witchcraft, yeah Some obstacles I had to get passed And leave it all behind, in the past.. quick fast Recovery took longer than expected I had time to remembered all the people that i neglected, uh yeah All the People I disrespected If we had a strong connection I'm sorry I disconnected yo I feel like I'm the only guy in here That survived the Lion's Den And walked out with a Lion's Share I'm the villain yo, and I don't care You'll never meet another like me Because baby I am rare Yeah Forgive me father for i have sinned Its been 17 years since my last confession 33 Years since the immaculate conception And about a year from this passive aggression Indian Summer Yo, I came In like a Lion, out like a lamb 7 Tears in my knee I was the sacrificial Ram, word What to believe? We played it off as a hoax And that's what's separates all the sheep from the goats, Look I can be fake, or i can be real I had to Circle the wagon, on the Oregon trail I haven't heard from her since I guess its not a big deal, yo Either that or its on a way bigger scale Now its Too Bad, for the Bad Guy I don't care, I got a Bad Vibe Too much fun, during a Bad Time I had mad love, now there's Bad Blood Good riddance, she was Bad News Bad Luck, I'm in a Bad Mood Somethings were just extreme I ain't woke from this Bad Dream More drinking ain't no joke More thinking there is no hope More sinking when you can't cope Cloudy piss, more smoke I got my self in, ill get myself out This is my mess, no one helped out No helping hand, no cry for help I can't help but, blaming my damn self, uh