Losin' Track

First, I woke up in my bed And opened up my eyes I've been feelin' lost Now, I'm too far in my head I've told myself some lies Like how much does it cost (to be) Living in a world With so much going on I'm just way too tired I know I could choose myself first But I've been losin' track I've known I should say my peace But I've been holdin' it back Next, I walked into my bathroom And looked into my mirror Who have I become A shell of what I'd thought I'd be When entering my twenties A ghost that no one knew (whose) Dying in a world While it keeps moving on In chaos and on fire I know I could choose myself first But I've been losin' track I've known I should say my peace But I've been holdin' it back Last time I felt this bad Was hanging by a thread My mind's been on the run I'm feeling so afraid The thoughts inside my brain Are getting way too loud Now I'm in a downwards spiral