Troubled Soul (feat. Arkh Zeus) [Bonus Track]

Man i really wanna change, but i can't I keep on losing focus and I make the same mistakes And I be over-stressing not a buck up on my plate Like whats it gonna take for me to make it to the bank? Like I dont know, and i dont think I ever will All this fuckin sinning can i make it into heaven still? I been blowing dope to ease the pain but I'll never heal Will I ever be enough for niggas? Shit I never will I been tryna prove em wrong, but I always prove em right They say Quis ain't good enough to be successful, live the life Ive got so much demons i can't hold them i can't find the light Flooded in depression I might f*ck around and die tonight Im not suicidal im just being realistic I been sippin somethin purple, smoking dope until im lifted I been doing so much wrong, no guidance no religion Im the only one to blame for the problems that have risen And everything's moving slowly Ain't got nobody I'm by my lonely God, please dont abandon this Troubled Soul God, Please Dont Abandon This Troubled Soul (Ahahah) Man I Can't Man I Won't Ever Change Never Hope Man I Can't Man I Dont Wanna Smoke But It Copes With The Demons And The Ghosts All The Lies False Hopes It'll Help Me Run Away That's The Power Of the Dope I been feeling incomplete, stressing heavy losing sleep Thinking what i gotta do to make my mother proud of me And my father hasn't really been around to ever see How much that I've been regressing, still the man he'll never be What happened to my confidence? I Used to have so much of it What happened to my happiness? Was sad and now im stuck with it Music was my remedy i spit some bars they f*ck with it But now its not enough of them I used to be so clutch with it I guess i wanna see so many proud of me That I'll put my pride aside but niggas still will doubt on me I bet that yall never ever fucking heard this side of me By the next one i bet that yall never hear this side of Quis And If you do then I'll be down to hell Oh wait, already there Whenever i'm by myself Well that would explain why I have been ignored Trapped inside this void I already have been destroyed Internally all for eternity Ain't no reworking me im damaged beyond surgery God never purges thee Otherwise id be perfectly Living, guess that explains that I ain't worth it g I know that shit ain't rocket science But I been treating it like it is so im crying On the inside and outside know im tired Of trying I can scribe that I'm better off dying Can't nobody tell me otherwise Its all lies claiming that they words from the wise Something that I can't condone Everybody loves Zeusy but Ricardo's still alone, oh