Friend of myself

(Yeah) (Quitty-K) Now I remember back in the days when I had a life It was joyful and bright like the sun in the sky I had a lot of friends and I had a good time I was a happy child with creative thoughts on my mind I was bullied in elementary Big boys always teasing me, dissing me Didn't even get to piss in peace Now I'm reminiscing on my knee under a tree About the things that went fucked up in my life, 'cause I still ain't free I remember crying in the school bathroom while the others went to eat Watching myself through the mirror as tears were falling my face like sweat in the heat Felt different from the others, I felt incomplete Felt lonely living this sorrow life on repeat I wish I could just be able to delete- My life and start it all over again 'Cause it was better back then When I wasn't distressed, depressed and oppressed My life was full of play, it sure was the best Now I feel compressed I hate my life and being unblessed It's almost like I was posessed I want to escape the reality before I fully lose my mentality, my vitality has already suffered enough My past made me tough Now I don't show my emotions, I'm hiding them They have been lost in my cuff since I was ten Being an abnormatility is rough; at least for a ten-year-old Getting left out then, it's like I was still socially cold 'Cause now I'm thinking 'bout the friends I never had, or had The friends that always treated me bad It makes me sad Because I know, I lost a lot Didn't get to live my childhood to the end, it ended on spot, like I was shot So I forgot The half of what ever happened Like I was blackened waking up from a coma The side effects being amnesia and neuroma People change so quickly, but not really One day we were friends, the next enemies It's like a had a disease That pushes people away from me And that's why I'm still lonely Or maybe I'm just a lonely soul In my heart there's a hole And I'm thinking, I'll never be whole I've lost control of my life while I'm looking at a knife And I'm wondering if I'll ever have a wife I didn't get friends, so I friended myself At least it's better than ending myself Now that's what some of you want to see; Quitty-K laying down lifelessly I didn't get friends, so I friended myself At least it's better than ending myself Now that's what some of you want to see; Quitty-K laying down lifelessly I'm a friend of myself, but I don't like myself If I ever want to die, there's a noose on my shelf I ain't gon' do it tho, 'cause I'm 'bout to go into a new scene And everything could turn better, although it's unlikely, because of the school scheme I've already been in this situation and seen That a change doesn't mean shit If you're deep, you can always get more deep (legit) That happened to me three years ago, when I changed schools I thought I would get friends, but I was proven to be a fool I was hated even more, I was lonelier than before And when I tried to speak, I was always ignored Now I'm changing schools again But I'm afraid the same thing will happen as then And I'm praying to God, Amen I don't even believe in that, I'm just so desperate Thank God I'm on vacation, 'cause I really need a respite I didn't get friends, so I friended myself At least it's better than ending myself Now that's what some of you want to see; Quitty-K laying down lifelessly I didn't get friends, so I friended myself At least it's better than ending myself Now that's what some of you want to see; Quitty-K laying down lifelessly I didn't get friends, so I friended myself At least it's better than ending myself Now that's what some of you want to see; Quitty-K laying down lifelessly I didn't get friends, so I friended myself At least it's better than ending myself Now that's what some of you want to see; Quitty-K laying down lifelessly (Okay kids; remember to be nice and friendly) (Peace)