Numb to the Brain

I'm not suicidal But sometimes I really don't feel okay I'm lost in the cycle Forgive me Lord, drugs got me feeling numb to the brain Laced myself, mixed the Mary with the Jane White girl at the party doing cocaine Saline in my system, I can't feel a thing It's not like you cared anyways I'm too fucked up I've been taking all these drugs 'Cause I don't really give a f*ck I got no love I wanted your love Now your time's up It's f*ck feelings now I'm not gonna sober up I'm sorry Mom & Dad, I'm still sinning If life was a game then I'm not winning Don't get too close I'll leave you finished She think she broke my heart Oh no she didn't I'm not suicidal But sometimes I really don't feel okay I'm lost in the cycle Forgive me Lord, drugs got me feeling numb to the brain Laced myself, mixed the Mary with the Jane White girl at the party doing cocaine Saline in my system, I can't feel a thing It's not like you cared anyways I took too much I don't even know why I guess the truth is I just really want to buy time But then again you can't even really buy any time The real question is why even ask me why? All girls I've ever gone for Have told me lies Tell me the truth It won't hurt me I'm already fucked up Don't you realize? I'm not suicidal But sometimes I really don't feel okay I'm lost in the cycle Forgive me Lord, drugs got me feeling numb to the brain Laced myself, mixed the Mary with the Jane White girl at the party doing cocaine Saline in my system, I can't feel a thing It's not like you cared anyways