Made This Instead of Plotting My Suicide

This is it. I'm done. My head's spinning again it's Too much Every morning is more attempts Only seeing the same results Started wondering my importance I became a shell, a husk And I can't identify the words That can accurately describe these Feelings boiling inside me To keep moving forward Is slowly increasing in difficulty Shit is mortifying My deepest apologies I didn't mean to bother, They tryna pick at my brain, I feel like cannon-fodder Anxiety is like a stain, can't seem to get it off, huh They leading lambs to slaughter, I dont wanna be apart of... There's no use in pointing the finger Already set in stone now I'm fizzling out Tell me you see misfortune is winning Treading for too long I wanna drown My body wont be found. I damn near lost everything I've ever loved, ever loved, ever loved Can't push aside all of this pain, I've had enough, had enough, had enough Momma you tried everything, thanks for not giving up, giving up, giving up Father you left us astray, were we not enough, not enough, not enough I damn near lost everything I've ever loved, ever loved, ever loved Can't push aside all of this pain, I've had enough, had enough, had enough Momma you tried everything, thanks for not giving up, giving up, giving up Father you left us astray, were we not enough, not enough, not enough Wanted more and more and more and more and more Were we not enough Wanted more and more and more and more and more Were we not enough I don't think I'm enough I don't think I'm enough I don't think I'm enough Mmh