Isolation

10 years later and I've snapped again Like you and I on tour now we back again Like the madness in the back of the ambulance That the Tumblr girl caused was an accident But I'm fine with it cause I'm used to pain Like my veins are your very favorite place to play Guess this chapter never made it Fifty Shades of Grey Cause the poison from your lips still tastes the same I'm ashamed to say that you have broke me down The foundation that I'm standing ons eroding out These letters on this keyboard I've been typing sound Like the rain that's on my windows when I'm pacing round Trying to drown you out I ain't never done well with moving on So I guess that what I'm saying is the time is now so Don't call cause a phone calls Gonna go and send me into rehab Then I'll relapse Forcing me to recap Everything that we had Causing me to reak havok with static from blasting RadioInactive Uggh I can't seem to sleep I been making it a habit Insomnia a bitch But you're making her a bad one Relying on these pills Up inside the kitchen cabinet Like I ain't got shit to say This lexapro been making me hallucinate and I'm losing weight cause these anti depressants got me losing sleep while I'm losing me It's seducing me and abusing me But confusingly it amuses me Consuming these three lines here Spent musically introducing me I'm falling to ashes You're collecting dust All silver lined caskets Just bring on the flood If death comes before us And if I should leave Remember I loved you While remembering me Lately I've been thinking it's impossible Staring at a screen writing down a line or two Counting out these syllables ain't hard for you But they always made it difficult to speak the truth So what am I to do Kick back relax enjoy the view I'm living in a hurricane but the sky is blue I'm sorry but the satellite ain't coming through My visions blurred and my mind is worse Like living life with pain just without the hurt Like sitting watching cars and they all a hearse Same faces, destinations and they always her And it always hurts I've been begging for forgiveness each and every verse Fighting back and forth with demons just without a church Try to keep on pushing forward but I'm on reverse Know what's worse Nothin I'm stuck here living my life at the bottom Everybody springing forward and I'm living in Autumn Too busy waiting on a come up that I know never coming And everybody making comments Like you gotta move on and Stop living in the past Put it back where you got it But it's driving me mad Don't you think I would solve it Instead of feeling like I'm stabbed In the pit of my stomach Ugh sorry Went off of the tracks Searching for a destination That quits bringing you back Next stop 10 days with a pen and a pad Sitting on a train next to Paul and his past Yep deep breath Need some room to relax You been busy trying to reach me I ain't calling you back You dug your nails Into my cough and Now they stuck in my chest Your promises meant nothing Now just leave me for death F*ck Covid I'm falling to ashes You're collecting dust All silver lined caskets Just bring on the flood If death comes before us And if I should leave Remember I loved you While remembering me