The River of Denial

What you hiding from? What's that pain from? Here just take something Why don't you take something Why don't you let it go And have fun Just to feel something And feel something What you hiding from? What's that pain from? Here just make something Why don't you make something Why don't you let it go And have fun Just to feel something And feel something None of us like to admit it Won't confess the crimes we committed We push it to a distance stay silent and keep it hidden Like split personalities and lack of our decisions In hopes that it won't come up Like constant nights of all that throw up Turing our stomach with all the stuff becomes acidic We all have an addiction and choose where we want to inject it Were supposed to break the chain's We the animal's inside the cage That keep it reproducing Don't evolve but staying stupid Become slave's Cause our own pain So we remain the same Same old thing The other day I was listening to Jermaine He was spitting facts And got me thinking Inside my brain Had to take a step away Staring out the window pane I felt what he done say Contemplating am I sane? Have I sacrificed for fame? My occuptation's on my brain Thought that I could change it all If I only had the change They say money make a man But only money makes you change What you hiding from? What's that pain from? Here just take something Why don't you take something Why don't you let it go And have fun Just to feel something And feel something What you hiding from? Whats that pain from? Here just make something Why don't you make something Why don't you let it go And have fun Just to feel something And feel something Who's worse me or a cutter? When I'm influcting my own self harm I drink till I'm tore up My kidneys shut down And my night is long Vibing to a song With every shot just to feel some warmth Till I start to black out And auto pilot then turns on Wake up in the morning feel like somebody hit fastfoward Not remembering a single thing I did the night before I say I'm done But come back to the place I was before Slapping my glass requesting more Forgetting what I came for Then I repeat the cycle Yes this is a viciouse cycle Can you leave the lights on Someone turn the lights on When I do it I feel the revival The bottle becoming my idol Till I come to my senses And my tendacies become suicidal Surprised I'm still alive Hold up let me check my vitals Amazing I claim God But yet I still feast with my rivals So I don't miss the high though Being eaten from inside though Claim im ok But dissarayeed I'm sipping with my eyes closed They ain't blood shot but yellow Changing colors vintalligo I lie, say I'm alright though Nah Really I'm alright though Cause the only crocs I see are on my feet While I'm sailing down Down the rive of denial