Terrified

You told me what to do You pressured me to touch you I wanted you to like me So I did what I was told to Terrified of what you knew You told me they would kill me too Every day now feels the same I feel the worms eating my brain Too often do I gamble Nothing to lose, nothing to gain Please tell me it's all just a game I feel myself going insane It was so long ago but I still feel the pain But if I wanna let it go I need to bring it up again I let you get inside my head You said you wanted yourself dead You sunk me in the water And told me I'd just have to tread We left a lot of things unsaid Both of us silently bled It was so long ago but I still feel the pain But if I wanna let it go I need to bring it up again I cannot play pretend I understand it is the end An intensity so vital Boundaries I can't defend I don't need another friend I will break until I bend It was so long ago but I still feel the pain But if I wanna let it go I need to bring it up again It was so long ago but I still feel the pain But if I wanna let it go I need to bring it up again