El Nino (feat. Bayzl)

So much pain Locked in those eyes Will it change As time goes by We don't know But we can try To fight the flame When it rains An angel cries Lost your way Now ya traumatized You're not alone Just ease yo mind We'll find a way Mama, I know the world turned its back You grew up dirt poor Wit Jim Crow to be exact Wit under funded schools And, separate restrooms And, water fountains too There were scars on ya back From our ancestors pain I know you had dreams Mama you ain't gotta say You tried to be a nurse But that dream slipped away The friction from the world Turned a ember to a flame And it was fueled by the rage Of what could've been The lack of help Just for the color of ya skin So much anger Mama please don't hold it in You drown ya thoughts in a six pack now and then Until your drunk Throwing up on the couch again Now you're yelling at Tee To clean the house again It's not you It's the trauma trapped deep within Self hate is the system that they keep us in Mama let us in Please So much pain Locked in those eyes Will it change As time goes by We don't know But we can try To fight the flame When it rains An angel cries Lost your way Now ya traumatized You're not alone Just ease yo mind We'll find a way You and I sittin' on the porch in the summer Listening to Warren G Until the moon come up Swimming pools Barbecues The whole block love ya When you smile I swear to god You nullify the struggle I wish I could live in these memories I'll pay the rent just so I can see The mama that I used to know No silver spoon But a heart of gold Things changed when you lost control I grew up You not the boss no mo I found peace and you lost ya soul I'm ya son I should never have to walk alone I came undone when I heard you were tossin' stones And hopin' that I fail And spreadin' false tales And tellin' family members that I'm really in debt And that's the only reason why I'm living how I'm living My blessings brought up all your past trauma You were triggered I get it We will find a way yeah We will find a way We will fight the flame yeah We will fight the flame We will find a way yeah We will find a way We will fight the flame yeah We will fight the flame We will find find a way I wanna go back to those El Nino summers The life we had was beautiful The money didn't matter I wanna go back Back Back I wanna go Back Back Back