Taboo

My mind is getting louder There's some pain that I just can't ignore Man all I want is silence Cause I don't wanna hide anymore I sacrificed my conscious And I don't know what's right anymore I'm drowning in the water Can someone please me bring me ashore Yeah i'm down, but you can't tell it nigga I circumnavigate depression like Magellan nigga Man these streets don't really give a f*ck how you feelin F*ck yo serotonin levels get yo dollars nigga, dollars nigga Man I'm spiraling fast, I don't know what I'm doin I just got kick outta class, man my whole life is ruined My scholarship got taken, man my heart is achin' That was my ticket out out the ghetto, but my violent nature Stems from the abuse I saw my mama takin But I can't show I'm affected because I'm gang related Now look I'm back where I started, wit a couple of charges F*ck I feel like a failure, my grandma took it the hardest I been applying for jobs, but them bastards ain't callin Every step that I take, man I feel like fallin I'm paranoid as shit, I need some coke, I'm tense Last week I shot at a nigga, I hope to god that I missed Cause I can't go back to prison I can't go back to livin Like a animal caged, in a corrupt justice system Either way I'm a die, I See no happy ending I ain't writing a note, man I'm pullin tha trigger Yeah i'm down, but you can't tell it nigga I circumnavigate depression like Magellan nigga Man these streets don't really give a f*ck how you feelin F*ck yo serotonin levels get yo dollars nigga, dollars nigga Last time that we spoke, you was drippin in red In front of aunties House, you was chasin that bread He said wassup lil cuz, how you doin in school What yo grades look like, I heard yo jumper was true The only way you make it out is if you follow the rules So don't get get caught up in the web full of brown recluse And don't do the shit I do, be better than me Tell yo momma I said hey, man what's up wit Tee I haven't seen her in a minute though I replied she in college tryna finish four I realized that he was trapped inside a heavy burden And it was weighing on his mental cause he couldn't curve it He feelin worthless, we never see the signs until it's too late Now that I'm older and life is hard, I can relate Cause my anxiety make me really wanna deflate But niggas don't get depressed, that's only for white folks These feelings I repress My mind is getting louder There's some pain that I just can't ignore Man all I want is silence Cause I don't wanna hide anymore I sacrificed my conscious And I don't know what's right anymore I'm drowning in the water Can someone please me bring me ashore Yeah i'm down, but you can't tell it nigga I circumnavigate depression like Magellan nigga Man these streets don't really give a f*ck how you feelin F*ck yo serotonin levels get yo dollars nigga, dollars nigga