Stages of Sonder

All I see Is a blurry crowd of life Staring through the glass A sitting soul, alas I feel All disguised In the heaviness of life The weight that I bear Is far beyond the weight of the world But my design Is a monumental picture Of all the best that I could make of all of what I see What about the way I feel; the weight I feel What about the way I see What about the way... What about the weight I fear What about the way I fear the weight I know What about the weight I feel inside my mind Walking by while everyone is staring through their glassy eyes I refuse to own the truth that I am in the blurry crowd Not a monumental picture, just another moving soul, sitting on the Earth There are endless specks on this canvas Each that brighten and stand the test of time, but will fade They will fade away There are limitless grains washing in to the unknown depths and will fade. They will fade I will fade away The weight of the world is nothing like the weight of the stars that paint the sky What about the way... what about the way I feel What about the way I see They will fade on this canvas Only a prick from a pin Though the fabric of the universe No bigger than the others The same light bleeds through me The same light bleeds through me I should have known that I was just another leaf on the tree Growing full with life Just to fall to the ground Overcome, I will fade I will fade to the edge of time With no rest, I will fade I will fade to the edge of time Will I wait Will I wait I will wait I despise the endless abyss of pointless purpose I won't breathe a meager breath I disobey complacent command And live with worth I will be the brightest star I despise the endless abuse of grief and anguish I secede from meager distress I disobey misfortune unplanned And live on the Earth What is my worth I will lift the heaviest star There is a way to cope There has to be a way A way to cope with the weight inside my mind Oh will I find a key to any door And reach the thoughts behind All the walls are impeding the answers I need There has to be a key To every door I see Alluring me to reach I will find a way But when will it come to me I've been searching for miles Broke through brick to hold it Close enough to feel it Take the weight of all the stars that paint my sky I will find the key Even a pin that breaks through the skin of the universe Will let light bleed through Let light bleed through Don't you want to wake up and just find the answers on the inside You can't walk away Don't wait it's too late Do you want to find the answers You can't walk away Don't you just want to find the answers on the inside You can't walk away Just wake up and you'll find the answers Don't wait too long You'll be the way What about the way I feel; the weight I feel What about the way I see What about the way What about the weight I fear What about the way What about the way I fear the weight I know Only I can see all I see Only I can see all I see Only I can see All I see Is a blurry crowd of life Staring through the glass A sitting soul, alas I feel All disguised In the heaviness of life The weight that I know Is so much like the weight of the world My design Is a monumental picture Of all the best that means the world to only me There are endless specks on this canvas Each that light up bright on this canvas There are endless specks on this canvas Each that turn to grains washing into the unknown depths They will fade They will fade