Clouds

I'm blinded by haze Forgotten hope of sun rays Lost touch with the light Now I spend my days in the shade Now I'm looking for my true self When I look in the mirror it's still not me Open my eyes and I still can't see Cut myself loose and I'm still not free Look in the mind of the lonely artist who let his soul fade away I used to see in full color but I let everything fade to grey I talk about dreaming of flying high but spend my life on the ground My greatest fear is feeling pain so I hide behind my clouds That's why I'm tryna keep my head above the clouds I pray to God that I don't ever come down I don't wanna live life on the ground That's why I'm tryna keep my head above the clouds That's why I'm tryna keep my head above the clouds I pray to God that I don't ever come down I don't wanna live life on the ground That's why I'm tryna keep my head above the clouds My head above the clouds I think I'm losing my mind Writing these lines Once upon a time I had a clear head and a clear vision But now I'm starting to go blind I started wrecking my mental health Never thought that I needed help I was so focused on being real When really I was starting to lose myself Now I'm drowning in my thoughts Tryna breathe at all costs I was tryna move I the right direction When deep down I'm lost Left a narcissist and a pessimist Stripped me of my innocence Trying hard to find that kid again But the child was grown and the dream was gone Now I'm sitting under the dark sky With the earbud's tryna numb the pain Brought back to my dark life When I'm interrupted by a drop of rain Cloudy shies, cloudy skies, cloudy skies Got me writing blurry lines Cloudy skies, cloudy skies, is that a ray of light? No, close the blinds That's why I'm tryna keep my head above the clouds I pray to God that I don't ever come down I don't wanna live life on the ground That's why I'm tryna keep my head above the clouds My head above the clouds I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today I haven't seen daylight today That's why I'm tryna keep my head above the clouds I pray to God that I don't ever come down I don't wanna live life on the ground That's why I'm tryna keep my head above the clouds My head above the clouds