When I'm Free

Reminiscing bout the past You never know when those emotions blast Always thinkin' bout those times I was the last Needed help, but no one listened, so I couldn't ask I had to finish my task, but all I found was a broken glass My mind was burning like gas, I begged for freedom Some people tried to save me, I pretended that I didn't need 'em Felt like a dog in a cage searching for a chance to run away Anger and rage made my colours blur and fade to grey But one day I found the way , no one ever played me And even if I fail, this time I have a plan B I'm not alone and not afraid, so come with me Or go away, but I decided today I decided not to change, but to be myself Tired of leaving all my skills laying on my shelf I decided not to hide, but to stand and fight For my attitude, for feelings till I reach my prime I decided to show everyone my will By spreading confidence that no one's ever gonna kill I decided to become a better me Hopefully I'll see you in the future when I'm free Never thought about that, why am I sad, why am I mad I'm alive and I should be glad, but I'm not, why is that Should I pray to God? Maybe move abroad? Or just end my speech, put a dot They say it's easy, like listening to Weezy or Jeezy When things get a lil bit cheesy, you just press stop But it's not, tell a person next to you to win a jackpot What would he say, that it's easier to get shot Wait a second I'm awake, what a great job I'm back on my track, this time I won't lose my way It's a long journey, but I decided today I decided not to change, but to be myself Tired of leaving all my skills laying on my shelf I decided not to hide, but to stand and fight For my attitude, for feelings till I reach my prime I decided to show everyone my will By spreading confidence that no one's ever gonna kill I decided to become a better me Hopefully I'll see you in the future when I'm free Man, I don't have that depression Ayy, but I know some people do Well, maybe I had once, but I told her F u I didn't say the full word, cause I was scared of her You know she wanted me to stay in my place and stay with her forever And then I started takin' actions, I changed my school once I felt that if I don't do that I'll soon be with the dead ones Dead on the inside, for a long time some of em' Finish their story by crossing the line - suicide If you think you're alone and no one wants to be with you You gotta SPEAK, couse nobody's gonna speak for you And you now keep the message that I gave you I wanna save you I decided not to change, but to be myself Tired of leaving all my skills laying on my shelf I decided not to hide, but to stand and fight For my attitude, for feelings till I reach my prime I decided to show everyone my will By spreading confidence that no one's ever gonna kill I decided to become a better me Hopefully I'll see you in the future when I'm free And I decided to be brave, when someone dies But if a person says he's good, he's telling lies I decided not to cry alone when I am sad But call my friends and have a chat, what's more to add Oh To all of those who wanted from me traps songs F*ck ya'll, couse I don't want to see you dead soon