Dark Thoughts

These dark thoughts they fill up my head And it fills my heart with so much dread Sometimes I wish I was fucking dead I'm so tired but I can't go to bed These dark thoughts they still fill up my head And it fills my heart with so much dread When I was a kid I thought my life would be perfect Looking back on it now I guess I still haven't earned it Growing up is tough You don't even have time to dream Sometimes when you've had enough All you can do is sit back and scream And you have to work You have to take life day by day And a part of growing up is realizing Nobody gives a f*ck what you have to say No one cares about your dream No one cares that they're being mean You had to be on your own So on yourself you learned how to lean So you gave up on those dreams Cause you knew life was going to be hard And you push people away And you put up a heavy fucking guard I'm so tired but I can't go to bed These dark thoughts they still fill up my head And it fills my heart with so much dread These dark thoughts won't leave my fucking head I'm at the end of my rope Don't know what else to do Living on the streets puts a strain on you And at the end of the day What else is there to say That I tried my best? Nah there ain't no fucking way Today I feel like shit Tomorrow will be the same Why can't there just ever just be any rain? It's hot outside And I'm living in this stupid ass car I'd drive it to the bottom of the lake But I can't get very fucking far These are the dark thoughts that I'm always warning myself about One of my friends said I was doing this music shit for clout But I ain't doing this for fame I ain't doing this for money Well he ain't my friend no more Cause you know that shit ain't funny They say not to burn the bridges with the people that you know In my experience if they're toxic then they have to fucking go What if I'm the one who's toxic to me myself and I Then maybe it's time to put some sharpened steel through my eye I'm so tired but I can't go to bed These dark thoughts they still fill up my head And it fills my heart with so much dread These dark thoughts won't leave my fucking head