Dead Inside

There're so many broken individuals today They shut everybody out because, because they're so afraid They don't know who they can turn to 'cause, they don't know who to trust But let me tell you something, don't be ever giving up I know what it's like, constantly feeling alone Trapped inside your own mind, don't know where you can go Don't ever really want to go outside and show your face And the smile that you're showing everybody's fake I don't want to keep feeling like I no longer belong I want to feel like I matter, I want to make sure I'm strong Don't want live my life thinking that what I'm doing is wrong Making music for the people who feel more than withdrawn I know the way we're all thinking when we resort to the drink How much does shit even matter? We really don't want to think That's the last thing on our minds when we feel dead inside We want to go to sleep, never wake up, just say goodbye No longer thinking straight I'm filled with pain and rage I'm just so dead inside Swear that I ain't feeling great No longer thinking straight I'm filled with pain and rage I'm just so dead inside Swear that I ain't feeling great I felt alone for a long time and told people "I'm fine" Pay people no mind if they think that I'm lying Ain't commit no crime, ask myself why I Choose to ignore the help and do shit alone, why? I'm independent, I don't need nobody's help That's what I tell myself, I fucking hate myself I'm constantly pushing people away It's like I'm honestly looking for things to hate It's like a coping mechanism, when I'm blowing shit up I fill people with pessimism and don't give a f*ck When I destroy all of my friendships, I just don't want to look I don't mean to be a bastard, I'm just down on my luck Like all the time, I fucking hate my life I ain't giving up, I don't feel alright But I can't tell anybody 'cause, I don't feel it's right Why do I feel like this, pretty much all of the time? No longer thinking straight I'm filled with pain and rage I'm just so dead inside Swear that I ain't feeling great No longer thinking straight I'm filled with pain and rage I'm just so dead inside Swear that I ain't feeling great I don't want to feel like shit each and every other day I just want to live my life in an ordinary way I'm just fed up of feeling the way I do, today Sick and tired of being sick and tired, how do I escape? It's impossible to get out of this mindset Stuck inside of my head, kind of feel like I'm dead I don't want to die yet, saying no goodbye's yet Got a lot of time left, shit is like a mind test Depression is a horrible disease Every single day, it's killing people off with ease I see people crying and they're begging for release Then I look in the mirror and I see what they see I see a man who is broken, and his face has no emotion A lot of things unspoken and the life that he has chosen Makes him feel like he is drowning in the ocean He's dead inside, everything is frozen No longer thinking straight I'm filled with pain and rage I'm just so dead inside Swear that I ain't feeling great No longer thinking straight I'm filled with pain and rage I'm just so dead inside Swear that I ain't feeling great