WELCOME TO THE FUNERAL

I'm not alright It's so hard to fight It's so hard to say words But I might die tonight So I get the kerosene And burn all these memories Because I don't know what to do Welcome to my funeral Stuck in this cubicle Feeling claustrophobic With all this pressure on my head Just wishing I was dead Won't be able to sleep tonight In my bed all I see is the colour Red dripping from my arms Because I cut my wrists from This pain some would say I'm Insane for doing that, but you Gotta learn from mistakes, just Take out your outtakes I guess love fades Feels like everyone cut me off Get so sad I drink smirnoff Maybe I should turn off my phone And maybe ignore all the hate It's just giving me a fate Feels like the devils are giving me a date Before I end up in the graveyard Can't help but believe them Because I'm so scarred from my past I'm living way too fast They say suicide isn't worth it But It feels like the only way out That's when I start to doubt myself Because my mental health Isn't good, so I just walk around with the hood Just putting my heart into the lyrics But these critics say it's trash That makes me so unmotivated Then I blame myself for the break up Then I take 2 xans to sleep Thinking if I'm gonna be the next peep I know they have the rip tweets In the drafts ready to go, I used to make music For the laughs, now I'm just serious about it And I can't stop working on this album Because i want it be the best Like the apex legends bulletproof vest Testing my rapping skills like it's a test Because recently I've been a mess I just wanted to live less The haters said that's bless I just have so much stress Shout out to jess Just hit that self destruct Yeah Because I know I ain't gonna make it to 21 I'm just so sad, I don't know if it's a bad thing But these emotions need to go away while I lay in my bed, just wanna sleep without the Drugs Yeah