In my place

If love's an emotion Why can't I control it? My heart's thumping over and over Convulsions It's way too late For my heart to break It's no more debates I'm safe in my place I've been through many women Most of which just bad decisions While they were condescending I was tryna focus on how we could Find comfort and settle Without us burning bridges Or maybe it's just my ignorance Telling me that she'd actually Grind harder then turn into A "Ms. Independent" Well tell me why I blow she now dependent Used to the stupid gimmicks And fraudulent feelings Formed from the fondest women They told me "Watch who you picking" Might have the wrong intention We used to cop the pj Never worried bout the distance I passed my shorty grip That's just incase we had to spin it I put a grand in yo hand 100 thou for spending She like the bread I get from rapping Why she acting different The hurt of being by yourself No other pain amounts Just tryna understand the business what the fame about I'm sick of simple flings Consistently come hold me down Come spark the flame and let it burn No time for burning out You were my muse Now it's hard to be amused All them nights we used to sit up thinking Drinking, passing booze I been feeling too confused Are my thoughts just not in tune? Cause even though our past was trauma I'm still steady thinking you I can't argue when I'm with you I just think it's different views Oh, you hanging with them boys tonight I know that's just ya crew Tryna sugarcoat the feeling Of disloyalty from you Either way it doesn't change the fact I'm often misconstrued You feel me? Thought my heart was talking louder But you couldn't hear me You know the city that we from That's why we kept the semi She said I'd never be famous I sound too much like Drizzy That's probably why nobody else In SC steppin with me Yo love was so dope Used to go toe to toe for Now they asking "who?" Like all y'all women work at Hooters You get fed, that's why I look at 12 As inches on a ruler So if love is an illusion Tell me why I would include you That's the journey I'm pursuing If love's an emotion Why can't I control it? My heart's thumping over and over Convulsions It's way too late For my heart to break It's no more debates I'm safe in my place So how you feeling when you off game? That's how I'm feeling right now I try to tell myself "it'll be okay" But I'm still hurting deep inside I mean I lost a couple friends And connections tryna find new direction And I got tired of seeing failure In my own reflection I tried to shade my imperfections Like I'm unaffected Even though I'm safe in my feelings I still feel unprotected Even in the places you feel confined to The darkest feeling always seem to find you Down to the depths of your deepest thoughts Are you still haunted by the love That you lost too Don't let evil prevail Or your love grow stale The best soldier for your battle is you May "The High" Watch over