The Hero's Journey

I'm doing this for the pleasure of experimentation What lies ahead? Not sure I'm in the present moment Those who know me often act surprised for two things First, I couldn't imagine you'd be in such a field Two, what? You don't know what you're doing I don't have a plan This time I'm choosing to be real rather than to pretend and act like a fool when things go out of hands What about my voice? It's in the works Where do I stand? I'm still running laps so how would I know Is anything certain, certainly there is a message I want to share with you and I'm doing this through music, through videos, through writings and through the tales I have yet to tell I refuse to be consumed by calcultations, by your expectations, as it happened in the past resulting in missing chances I'm absorbed by the craft, I lose my sleep over it, once I'm in the zone the whole world could end and I wouldn't know it And I admire this but at the same time I'm scared Am I being too square with my circle? Am I giving them enough time or am I being too selfish Is it true? That I'm doing this for them, will throwing gifts their way make up for the time I wasn't around Or, do I have to admit this, that I love this, that it feels like, the deeper I get in the more it pulls me in Keep coming back for more like I have no pride, despite the rejections, despite the silences, despite the low chances I'm making an exception so you know that you're special to my eyes your ex-rivals will tell you Exploration, it's innate. Excited by risk to the risk of scaring away potential mates Expectations, I don't have many. Am I destined for success and fame? I'm almost embarrassed to say that it doesn't matter to me What does is to do a good job, to perfect the craft and to gift you an experience What does is to live it, to the fullest, this moment Merging music with philosophy, that's weird It's all experimental for now What I do isn't seamless, won't happen in an instant Sorry friends, if I turned out to be a disappointment I'm thinking long-term, a change for the youngster I was once was Chasing results compromise results, your gift to the world What's he doing? Drawing, singing, he must be still dreaming At his age, is he not in the real world I can see it in your eyes you don't need to say it outloud It's hard for you to believe because you rarely give it a try And the rare times you do, you give up too soon It's true, I can be up in the air at times It's just that, your conventional paths don't suit my style The system's definitely not engineered for your wellbeing That's not a reason for you not to learn So stop making a fuss and take a look at yourself Whenever I hit rock bottom, I pleaded guilty Seems like, integrity is a fantasy to this world Seems like, faith is a mystery to this world Seems like, miracles are for the naive in this world You make your choices I make mine The reality we're in is pretty much up to us To change it, you have to own it first I'm doing my thing, I'm following my rhythm, I'm living to the beat of my own drum If I don't get what I envisioned, it means I haven't put as much work I should've put in Not that I'm unlucky, that some force is against me, as many like to believe For me to get there, who I am as a person must match with the destination I chose this, so I'm seeing it till the end An oddball from the start, a black sheep among the crowd, I never could fit in so I found shelter out of the box Felt weird for being me while at the same time building my resolve I've always pondered, how would the ideal man behave? I'm still on this quest and I promise you I won't stop until I perfect every single one of my attempts The journey begins People see you smile, and instantly assume you're being naive and delusional But the thing is, the brighter your smile is, and the more you can smile, the more you've been through and not only that, the more you've conquered That's something not many will get Don't lose it