Write Off

Has it really been so long? Have I changed, or am I just a better liar? The shame is real. Don't say things you don't mean. Time has not changed a single thing. I want to rewrite these imperfect histories With a better spin, so I come off human But my head just repeats these old mistakes I've tried so hard to deal with it I get home and write off the day Lie on my back and stare at the ceiling I close my eyes but I can't sleep Accept defeat and drink to drown this feeling I sometimes think without flashbacks I wouldn't have one memory to call my own Loneliness as a way of life You're walking home alone, it always takes so long Why won't you just stop lying to me My hatred of myself is starting to bleed out into the world I get home and write off the day Lie on my back and stare at the ceiling I close my eyes but I can't sleep Accept defeat and drink to drown this feeling I get home and write off the day Lie on my back and stare at the ceiling I close my eyes but I can't sleep Accept defeat and drink to drown this feeling Going down Going down Going under and I'm going down Going down Going down Going under and then I'm gone