RAIN SO HARD

In my last life upon this shore I slept my way to being pure at nothing, sure of nothing... Next to nothing less than emptiness In such a life I paid my dues by dancing in my Sleeping shoes I made my messes by myself And never swept the floor I couldn't or I'd disappear for sure In my last life I prayed for more by gunning down The candy store protected all my customers With spider bites and kitten purrs we'd Roll around in sacred grass until it grew with Broken glass - a picket fence of flying ants, Exotic and insane; it wasn't always happy But it wasn't really pain until it Rained so hard from the garden to the yard On the pavement in the gutter Like a wet leaf I'd be smothered It would pour like concrete Onto my roof onto my street It would rain so heavily that I would die When I woke up I could live another life In my last life I played the fool, it was the gift I gave to you - let you believe that Playing roles was actually something I chose I let you have a front row seat, a cushion where The mindless meet and you put up your Stinking feet and laughed until I cried I must have been convincing ‘Cause you seemed preoccupied until it Rained so hard from the garden to the yard On the pavement in the gutter Like a wet leaf I'd be smothered It would pour like concrete Onto my roof onto my street Poison puddles onto my feet It would rain so heavily that I would die When I woke up I could live another life When I was warm and heaven-blessed I blew apart My Sunday dress - it fell like mud onto the clouds And deafened planet earth with sounds of Sorrow and of holy bliss I learned that god is Just a kiss, secret piece of outer space where People can erase the face of Love gone sour, loneliness and loss of power, Lack of anger, fits of rage, write a book and Burn the pages, build a house and knock it down Play the victim or the clown; these two feet Need never touch the ground again, I swear, I'm eternally awake and unaware Rained so hard from the garden to the yard It would rain so heavily that I would die When I woke up I could live another life Rained so hard…