how many ways

Open the curtains Why am I such a burden Turn on the spotlight Maybe this time I'll be in sight Tired of hiding Tired of trying Tired of being her understudy Letting insecurities write my story I know I should be happy for her But everytime I look at her it hurts How many times How many ways Do I learn from my mistakes I'm good but she's great She's sunshine and I'm pouring rain How many more ways can I change What's in her water I must be missing something And I'm getting tired of feeling like I'm worth nothing Nobody knows that this led me to go to the bathroom In the dark Cause I couldn't stand to see the reflection of my stretch marks I know I should be happy for her But everytime I look at her it hurts How many times How many ways Do I learn from my mistakes I'm good but she's great She's sunshine and I'm pouring rain How many more ways can I change How many more ways can I change