Relief

I make all of this art Thinking about what's not my fault Now I cry all the time anyway Such a relief to feel something Maybe being this way is better than whatever I was before Maybe being this way is better than whatever I was before I try so hard to sit still Can't go a day without my pills Now I'm high all the time anyway Such a relief to feel nothing Maybe being this way is better than whatever I was before Maybe being this way is better than whatever I was before Maybe being this way is better than whatever I was before Maybe being this way is better than I was before All night, my life, I wait to kick in Don't look, this side, so ugly when I cave in All night, my life, I wait to kick in Don't look, this side, I'm so ugly when I cave