11:59 (new years eve)

At 11:59 on new year's eve I imagined us driving around Empty streets like you promised Jokes on me for thinking you'd be honest At 11:59 on new year's eve I thought of your body surrounding me I wanted you so bad Wish I could blame it on the substances But I'm sober in all circumstances I just wish we had the chance To see what we would do And I thought we were at our best Realized that was the lowest we've ever stooped I know I've been the topic of conversation We both have a lot and a lack of patience For each other Wonder why you bother To pick up the phone You know where this will go Not back to my place Cuz you never stay Can't leave more broken pieces in my room There's no space Do you have a pit in your stomach When you think about all this When you think about me and her Do you think about it often? Cuz I go to extremes tryna get connection Don't really want you back Just want affection Love lies so hard We want that we shouldn't And I know that you'll be like I mean are you kidding? But it's not my fault that you never let me in I can't go 3 months without even being your friend And let you in my, my heart again I can't in my heart again You know I can't do that Do that again