Survivor's Guilt

I got all this guilt that I survived Sometimes it kills me I'm alive when you're not How am I alive when you're not The blue of the sky don't look the same I learned that nothing good can stay when you're gone Everything has changed cause you're gone Everybody's saying pain's the best kind of teacher Lost everything I said I needed and I'm still breathing I'm here but it's eating me alive Asking why don't change a thing Why can't make it better There could never be a good enough reason Asking why Don't change a thing Why can't make it better It'll never be ok I couldn't keep you I'd take your place if I could choose Would've been the death of you if it happened to me Can't help thinking that it should have been me I don't want to live in a day that you didn't see I don't want to be a victim of this insanity My hands will never be big enough To carry the weight of us Everybody's saying pain's the best kind of teacher Lost everything I said I needed and I'm still breathing I'm here but it's eating me alive Asking why don't change a thing Why can't make it better There could never be a good enough reason Asking why Don't change a thing Why can't make it better It'll never be ok I couldn't keep you God forbid I forget what it felt like to see you smile God forbid I forget all the magic that I had God forbid I ever understand Why don't change a thing Why can't make it better There could never be a good enough reason Asking why Don't change a thing Why can't make it better It'll never be ok I couldn't keep you I got all this guilt that I survived Sometimes it kills me I'm alive when you're n