Bred in the Bone

Am I further from you now? It's the furthest I have felt I've been laying by your side for hours Wishing I were somewhere else It's a certain kind of sinking A heart can learn to fear Begs the question and thinking "How the hell did I get here?" And how I thought I learned a little temperance And to let a memory be But, Familiarity's a Temptress And once again the fool is me Am I closer to it now? It's the closest I have been I'd say it, but the words are sour And my skin it feels so thin I will certainly be leaving I will catch the day's first train I will not be caught believing Last year's bitter love remains If nothing's changed And nothing's been mended Well, it's not for lack of trying (I know) We'll only start back where we ended I wish this was some simple fracture A clean break that doesn't show Do I even know what I am after? Or is it all bred in the bone?