She

I'm sitting with my friends here Having a cold draft beer Planned this weekend all year Facials, mani, pedi I'm in my brand new brassiere Underneath my black sheer dress that I bought from downtown Peaking over a mirror not a man I think I'm prettier than them Over confident Shining while I dance I'm out of my den Then suddenly a bright beam of light terrified my eyes Mesmerising smile As she walked through the door 2 metres from the floor She's everything and more She took away the score I gave myself Suddenly I'm someone else I don't recognise Cos I want her smile Will I ever see me like I see you I don't ever wanna feel like I know you But of course that's a lie You're trapped in my mind So all the efforts I made To make myself feel great Vanished like a boyfriend Who took with him all my love And now I'm back to square one Self reflecting, no fun Surrounded by everyone Insecurities all over Again and again God I hate I'm not them Where's the confidence I boasted to my friends Can't even pretend I see the way they look at her And the way she smirks And the moment her hair falls perfectly Oh why can't I be Half of that beauty I'm screaming jealousy Mind, soul, & body So suddenly I'm sick of myself I wanna be someone else Will I ever see me like I see you I don't ever wanna feel like I know you But of course that's a lie You're trapped in my mind Will I ever like me like I like you Honestly from head to toe I'd rather be you And I'm afraid I'm not lying Cos you're trapped in my mind I'm sitting with my friends here Planned this one night all year I thought I made myself clear I'll love myself without fear And of course that's a lie I live an insecure life Will I ever see me like I see you I don't ever wanna feel like I know you But of course that's a lie You're trapped in my mind Will I ever see me like I see you I don't ever wanna feel like I know you When I close my eyes I hope she hides