Long Nights

Here I lie awake at night Ceiling staring back at me Burning holes into the eggshell paper with my gaze Now I'm in a daze Squinting through the haze Eyes pried open knowing I'll regret it the next day Emptiness inside my bones Filling up my stomach too Left and right I'm in an angry tussle with the sheets Kicking both my feet Eyes too blind to see By the time I'm done the dawn is waiting here for me Something's weighing on my chest What did I forget today? Did I leave the oven on or leave the door unlocked? Staring at the clock Deafening tick tocks Is it way too late to leave and take a little walk? Light illuminates my face, Staring at an empty screen Mindless scrolling text my eyes are too tired to see Man, I want to scream! Someone talk to me Ever slowly losing my grip on reality The darkness in my chest keeps growing each night But I persist till morning light Can someone purge this darkness from my body? Kill the roots inside my soul The rate at which the hours pass is killing me Someone come devour my demons whole Dirt is pooling up in my chest Time is ravaging my mind I'm quickly being swallowed by the hours Someone please erase the whole concept of time More and more I eat away Eat the seconds passing by Satiating hunger that I do not even want Now I'm cold and hot, When will all this stop? Once I make it to tomorrow everything will drop The darkness in my chest keeps growing each night But I persist till morning light Every night, the world around us gets to fade away but I do not Lying here, in my own sweat tangled in a mess of blankets feeling hot Trying hard to quiet down but no matter what my mind's moving too fast All around, the world slows down, do you have a clue how long my nights each last? I am eating my own temper Feeding on my own distress Like every single night I try to make a change But the next's the same as all the rest Can someone purge this darkness from my body Kill the roots inside my soul The rate at which the hours pass is killing me Someone come devour my demons whole I am deep in my subconscious Buried far inside my mind I'm dying waiting merely for another day Someone please erase the whole concept of time