This Is How I Drive at Night

I had a sleepover with your ghost The kind where we would stay up all night talking You know I carry you around like my Jansport It makes me feel like we're together walking Around the four ponds that froze beneath the new year I should've done more to save you, man I'm sorry I used to dream of the day when I wouldn't know fear And now I'm wishing it would just come back and mark me Because I linger on your doorstep Because I just watch flames flicker Because I play tunes by fresh dirt 'Cause I play favorites, I'm guilty Yeah I'm sitting in my bedroom And I'm letting all the lines blur I'm sitting at the traffic lights And all of the sudden tears flow I've been hitting the courts at night Way we used to back in July 2010 But now my fingers go red I think this ball is dead I drive around at night Just trying to see the signs Just trying to feel alive I'm just trying to feel alive I drive around at night Just trying to see the signs Just trying to feel alive I'm just trying to feel alive I drive around at night Just trying to see the signs Just trying to feel alive I'm just trying to feel alive I drive around at night Just trying to see the signs Just trying to feel alive I'm just trying to feel alive I drive around at night Just trying to see the signs Just trying to feel alive I'm just trying to feel alive Just trying to feel alive I'm just trying to feel alive