In My Mind

My heart, my soul, my mind is havin' me blind Still can't find my way My life is outta line People be sayin' I look like I'm really chill But in reality I may be fuckin' ill Kill a clown comin' down gonna slash you up and down Turn your world upside down Turn that smile into a frown You know I'm a threat Lock me in a shed Can't you hear the voices inside of my motherfuckin' head Sippin' on lean Smokin' this green Feelin' like I'm Charlie Sheen Bitch you know I'm mean You know how it is Gotta treat 'em to keep 'em keen I don't wanna waste your time So why do you keep wastin' mine Can't you see the pain in my eyes when you stop me from suicide That's alright 'Cause if I live because of you then I don't mind Givin' me your hand we're just like an unbreakable band I don't wanna waste your time So why do you keep wastin' mine Can't you see the pain in my eyes when you stop me from suicide That's alright 'Cause if I live because of you then I don't mind Givin' me your hand we're just like an unbreakable band You're so damn kind I can feel you numbing the pain, in my heart, in my mind Every single living embodiment of mine I don't wanna be right anymore Ain't got time for that anymore I'd rather take notice to the small things, the big things, anything but that I don't mean to be a threat to you I only wanna feel for you, be there for you and keep callin' you my boo Baby you know I'll choose you You're my light and direction The core of my resurrection Showin' me kindness and mindfulness Givin' me a sense of fulfillment I don't wanna die when I'm waitin' for you 'Cause I wanna see your body and you It brings us closer and closer I wanna move over to you I don't wanna waste a moment If it's with you I don't wanna waste your time So why do you keep wastin' mine Can't you see the pain in my eyes when you stop me from suicide That's alright 'Cause if I live because of you then I don't mind Givin' me your hand we're just like an unbreakable band I don't wanna waste your time So why do you keep wastin' mine Can't you see the pain in my eyes when you stop me from suicide That's alright 'Cause if I live because of you then I don't mind Givin' me your hand we're just like an unbreakable band How the f*ck am I meant to love somebody when I hate myself I don't wanna fuckin' mend it, I just wanna fuckin' end it Don't try and bend it I can't see myself in the mirror All I see is the reaper Am I blind or outta my mind I guess I'll only know in time Time again See these bitches be lippin' again They say we be shippin' They don't even know what they mean They seem too fuckin' keen It's becoming shit all to me Bitch, get a load of me