Memories

Hm hm hm hm hm What is wrong with me bro? I don't understand like what is wrong with me? Nah f*ck that shit I'ma keep going, I'ma keep going It's Rade Jz in this Back in the day I was just cramped up in a closet Done made a long way that's something I'm definitely proud of When I was in need I couldn't tell them what I wanted Had to stay out the streets it took me long to find my target From a place where people bleeding when I tell you that I mean it Bloodshed, killings, man, all of that I seen it Swear I don't know how I'm feeling, so much hot water I been in That still up to this day I got way too much stuff to deal with So many times I tried too many nights I cried Oh I can count how many times they all left me behind They tried to count me out the game but they gon' see me shine It ain't no stopping me I got goals on my mind What you know about them days that I had to maintain? When I lied to everybody just to hide my pain I was racked with guilt and then I drove myself insane With hunger in my body I was too afraid to fail And I ain't gon' lie it's a lot of tears I shed Lot of shit got me mad I can tell I'm seeing red Swear I keep it to myself the type of pain you'll never get Don't wanna talk about it cuz my feelings are dead But I can't go off track gotta stay up in my zone Half the people that left still be blowing up my phone I been stuck in my old ways and I'm not sure where to go Told my mom I'm on the road don't know when I'll be home Remember times I was up all night couldn't bring myself to fight Did a lot of shit most of which was wrong it was justified I was too deep in my mind Swear I couldn't think right I don't regret the shit I did I guess that's what helps me shine The way I see it everybody's throwing stones at me Hard to admit it ain't no one I wan' be closer with Left all my problems in the past don't wanna deal with it Can't get attached I told my girl let's get it over with Uh uh uh uh Uh uh uh Uh oh oh oh Uh uh uh uh uh uh Uh uh Uh uh uh uh Uh uh Uh uh So many times I tried too many nights I cried Oh I can count how many times they all left me behind They tried to count me out the game but they gon' see me shine It ain't no stopping me I got goals on my mind