Juxtaposition (Remastered)

My watch reads midnight and I sway into the void again My feet don't touch the ground It's 2am and the sun still hangs around Burning in the clouds I sat on top of the roof, she fed me hints of "I can see our ship going down" And if I was never meant to be here Then how the hell will I make it out The sky is pitch black in the middle of the afternoon And I don't know what to do These things just don't make sense next to each other now do they two? Something I was never meant to wear And that front door I was never meant to be there The time I was never meant to share And a weight that I was never meant to bear Weighs me down Theoretically and technically, I'm much older now My creativity is bursting at the seems But every pencil that I pick up seems to break My hands are shaking far too much to a draw picture And my nails are far too short to write a song But every thought from the moment that I opened up my window Somewhere in my mind I've stored it all And when I think back to the moment The imagery, so vivid, breaks my heart I've come so far, and I've driven so long And I'm far from the start But everything beneath the skin My physicality, it perplexes me Now I question my true nature... What is real, am I still sleeping? In that cafe twelve months ago Or here right in this moment have I finally found myself Like a picture on the shelf Simply waits for me to be tall enough to reach Into my view, into this blue sky of rain washes me away Carelessly washes me away