Conflicted

First time I felt betrayed I think I had it wrong I lost my mom too young, felt like I ain't belong Everybody would tell stories, I'd just nod along Not knowing later on I'd bleed it on a song I remember being pissed like who the f*ck is this I became a different person with someone to miss Everything contradicted, every sense had drifted Every thought was twisted and every fight I picked it Took a while to admit it cause I just dismissed it I ain't wanna be a victim so I just resisted But it wasn't till the day that my ex would go and say I think that you need help letting go of what can't stay That it hit me Because of all the pain through the years placing blame I had venom coursing through every last one of my veins And I'll lose everything I've gained if I don't find a way to let it drain Stay down, shots rang from the barrel of a gun Stay down, kill our people man, they killin' everyone Stay down, devil's work is never done Where the limit is the sun, pray it up to god, if not you better run Stay down, shots rang from the barrel of a gun Stay down, kill our people man, they killin' everyone Stay down, devil's work is never done Where the limit is the sun, pray it up to god, if not you better run As a 12 year-old kid I was suicidal I was only 13 when I perused a bible Thought it was some bullshit, there was no denial I could end it right now but I choose survival Vices, got me locked in a vice grip I'm nine-tenths away from leaving you lifeless I'm ISIS, I take your head off and bite this I'm violent, man why the f*ck am I like this From useless tyrants I should glue my eyelids The youth is mindless I'll choose an island and move inside it The rules are viking, they're rude and hiking They're shootin' my kids Prayin' for a day that'll never come Man they shootin' up our people and they better run All these people that I love? You done severed'em And if you call yourself a god we need a better one Stay down, shots rang from the barrel of a gun Stay down, kill our people man, they killin' everyone Stay down, devil's work is never done Where the limit is the sun, pray it up to god, if not you better run Stay down, shots rang from the barrel of a gun Stay down, kill our people man, they killin' everyone Stay down, devil's work is never done Where the limit is the sun, pray it up to god, if not you better run