Train Station (feat. Gemini Genesis & Downtown)

I'm finna climb out this gutter, I'll survive for my brother Interventions isn't working so I'm trying another Sometimes I feel like I should cut ties with my mother But the truth is it would kill her, she would die from the suffer She's abusing liquor, pills and I'm just tryna love her Cause I don't ever wanna see her go and die like a mother Die like my father, drowning his liver and kidneys I've got visions of winning but this depression is sickening I'm at this job interview pretending I give a f*ck When I know I'm the next one up and nobody could f*ck with us Some days I just look in the mirror and think I'm stuck RKTHHS till I'm gone and faded to rust Fell in love with the devil, I'm starting to think it's lust I had friends in the past that I used to think I would trust Then they went ghost like face when the killa comes All these verses is arenas, I picture them filling up They call me Downtown but I'm ready for all the ups I've been low for a minute like clouds under the sun I recorded this track in the parking lot of a train station I needed that grind mode, I'm up on my grind homes I knew that I'd fly home, in and out of a time zone Strictly cause of my rhymes bro, I know that I shine yo That ain't me being vain, I'm just manifesting my dreams So I can make it all bloom like 92 Kurt Cobain Nevermind I went and married love, put a clip to my clever mind Circumstantial evidence, something you'll never find 27 club, sell your soul just to get inside 12 roses on your grave, lay me down where the legends die There were flowers all over the place Gangsters have this thing about flowers They think whoever sends the biggest arrangement cares the most It was just like Sunny said it would be Nobody cares Nobody cares Okay, I need you all to listen This gon be a little different so I need all your attention Let's go back to 8th grade, before I forget to mention My grandma broke her hip, slid into straight dementia My mom slipped to depression, I remember trains roaring My heart and mind were warring, tryna stop the tears from pouring It wasn't too long after, my mom cracked under pressure Praying to a god whose picture sat up on her dresser She couldn't understand why gram's memories up and left her Imagine your own parent forgetting who you are You too would end up on a stretcher Fast forward two years? I'm 18 with no guidance Middle fingers to the world, not even tryna hide it Definition of defiance till one day I heard the silence My soul was piling up the mileage, had to see the bigger picture Got so used to being empty, had to fill my own pitcher Started cutting off the fake, chopping heads off all the snakes Had to do it for my sake now that everything's at stake In the kitchen fixing plates, I was cooking while they ate I was starving, had to wait, money up and now I'm straight