Searching for Respite

Into the dark once again Pushing the limits of my awareness Almost crossing the line Looking back and I see myself In the stream Drowning Trying to escape the flood Bon voyage Staring down from the heights Only despair in their eyes I hear them cry My only comfort lies in silence Buried in the dreams Inaccessible while I am awake I will close the door once more To skip the wailing refrain So many times I've reached beyond When the noises won't leave me alone Fucking up my mind So close to lose it all again I am about to see To the other side of sanity I'm falling deeper Into this world of lamentation So distracted I'm decreasing I'm crawling in the depths Slipping away from senses Waiting for anything To pull me back to surface Screaming for seclusion Screaming for some fucking peace When breathing is a chore Can't take it no more