Learning To Love Again

I'm learning how to love How to love again I'm learning how to love How to love again I'm tryna learn how to love again Tryna forgive all your past sins You killed my bro left me lonely I'm going through it ain't the only Minutes pass and the pain lasts Such is my life and it moves fast I thought I escaped but it caught me Stays in my mind now it haunts me Hope it haunts you what you did to him His girl too what you did to them Stop me God from murderous thought This ain't who I am or what I was taught I got to slow down before I break down My mind in a blur can not fake now Back to my ways not the good ones All this grief always weighs tons I'm learning how to love How to love again I'm learning how to love How to love again Why is this complicated I'm suffocating stuck in waiting When I was 12 I was educated Bout death and pain I can't erase it Wish I could drink then I'd chase it If I can't fly away I face it Cry when I need I have to pace it Life is a test I hope I ace it I'mma let em know when I heal up Right now the griefs been re-upped I'm taking my time tryna come back Ten times better on the next track God give me joy through this hard ride In you I confide through the hard times You give light in some dark rhymes You give me songs with renewed mind I'm learning how to love How to love again I'm learning how to love How to love again