So Far

To be besides oneself is an unusual feeling Notably so when it has lasted for so long It's been a mess so far You've only gone so far It's been a wreck so far You've never gone so far So far failing, I've been falling In the distance, I hear the calling Do I wanna do it, do it for the music Do it for the people that feel useless I've been a drunk addicted to drugs Addicted to sex just looking for love Pop another pill feel like jelly roll My is heart cold probably cause hell has froze Where are the facts where is the truth Feel like the walking dead Heading to the tomb Life is but a dream don't tell me your woke You sounding like a sheep & you sport a shiny coat What am I do to let all y'all know Something coming true like words I spoke Put my heart & soul in every bar I wrote My scars are quots and from mars I've rose It's been a mess so far You've only gone so far It's been a wreck so far You've never gone so far How would I explain that I seen it coming Some things just a curse hope I free me from'em Bruh is just absurd I know you thinking of it Discuss it like some birds a pair of keets or something A paradigm shift A paradise slit That don't make sense You weren't there & I'm sick Hold up bring it back Sorry wish I could I would say my bad But this is my good Self expression self exalting Self deprecation self exhausting Self destructive selfish Rocky He lit the match and hell was costly But this a resurrection of everything I could be Better yet lemme go ahead and say it should be When I really focus clarity of what it would be It's been a mess so far You've only gone so far It's been a wreck so far You've never gone so far Dont be so hard on yourself kid I know what it's like to be your own critic Battle myself every day Somedays I cant look in the mirror Bring me back to the time Before I was at war with my mind I hate myself but I love myself Need to get back to skating get on the grind Make that money take that money It's not the root but it is the vine I heard through the grape vine That I'll have a great life I just need to take time Notice what's aligned So misunderstood What is this to you I hope things get better I hope I'm getting through Meaning in the static time to get in tune Thinking's been sporadic am I just a loon