Trouble (Freeverse)

Today's been a struggle that ain't a lie Depression just creeps up from behind Everything's good yea everything's fine I am a man I'm not suppose to cry Outside I smile but I'm dying inside Where is the freedom I'm trying to find Is it real like does it exist I must confess that I'm liking the silence Why am I haunted addictions are toxic I hide my emotions inside a bottle Don't get me started on all of the scars that Are a constant reminder that I have once lost it I want to be happy I'm telling the truth I go by R.E.D but I'm selling the blues Failing to do what I'm needing to do You say that you love me but where is the proof Love is such a fickle thing It starts off nice but ends in pain I try so hard to pretend today That I don't want love but I can't refrain How's that for honesty how's that for being transparent I wonder if my daughter thinks that I am just a bad parent Heard today that she has my eyes Inside of grocery line I remember her holding me tight Now days I'm just coping with rhymes Kid has been battered Intricate patterns Is the only way he expresses himself I live in the madness Summer time sadness We can all see that he's next to himself How do I manage All of this damage Maybe it's time to get me some help Naturally happy Life has been tragic Smelling of sulfur I just came from hell Oh heavens sakes Will I make it to heavens gates I feel like Marshall Mathers A song by Kevin gates Tell me what's reala I am so nilla I'm the flow killa It's all that I got Try to be still but I got the shakes I'm at the bottom Nightmares of the top You get it right, recognize Sometimes you gotta test the tides Let the mind best describe What's on it just in case I'm dead tonight Fricken sickened, timid, livid, driven to go and get it right It isn't what it isn't and I know it's a shifting paradigm Hello la dies gentle men I welcome you all to the ride Life's a crazy roller coaster we all have to pay the price That's true, I just do what I can Black blue, I never say that I can't That's true, I just do what I can Black blue, I never say that I can't