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So much you go through daily like How you know when it's over How you know when you met the end Shit get harder I kept my head high Wasn't tryna act rude But I then Been through so much Trauma Through my years of being under I don't know what else to do How do you know How do you know How do you know if things turning around How do you know How do you know How do you know when still ain't No one around Guess im pose to jump off head first And put trust in everything I know I believed in being true and knowing everything you do would really work But this a process so it happen slow And that don't change a thing I'm fighting with my self my grandma callin say she wana pray She say she see them demons that be following every move I make They plotting on my mind and heart The reason won't no female stay I've strayed from who I am to find myself inside a lonely grave But f*ck it My flaws ain't up for discussion I fell and fall to this day but this shit the reason I'm hustling My growth is different I still talk to God I know that I'm lucky Cuz I then seen so many patnas go I know death was huntin The reason I'm clutching Season is commin Please do not rush it I seem to believe my deed to be perceived as I wasn't I see that it doesn't Leave me be out to flee in my rubble I know that I'm loving Tho I don't show my pride is above it I need to be strong Need to be grown My knees hit the ground I'm deep in a sea of creatures wit my feet on a ground Am I dead did I drown I float don't see no people around Did I make it to where I'm destined guess we'll never know now I kept my head high Wasn't tryna act rude But I then Been through so much Trauma Through my years of being under I don't know what else to do How do you know How do you know How do you know if things turning around How do you know How do you know How do you know when still ain't no one around I got some many questions And I need answers Like how a single mother struggling wit her kids And she can barely pay the rent become a dancer I know my life aint perfect But I just wonder why do other people suffer And still gotta go through hell to get from under I thought if we do everything that we pose to do And be all good then somehow we end up having all the answers I see I'm wrong But it's not up to me to be the judge so I just carry on In hopes that when I'm talking up to God he hears my every song And knows I'm tryna fight and keep it right when shit go wrong I'm waiting for a answer tho some shit you just may never know so I kept my head high Wasn't tryna act rude But I then Been through so much Trauma Through my years of being under I don't know what else to do How do you know How do you know How do you know if things turning around How do you know How do you know How do you know when still ain't no one around