Going Somewhere?

I'm ready to go to sleep Freddy in my nightmares bein so sleak Cuttin off my tongue when I'm ready to speak Every single night I'm wakin up in sweaty sheets Runnin away but I'm not movin my feet I'm climbin a hill shits to steep As I fall back an I wake from my sleep Pray the lord for my soul he reaps We're not playin for love we're playin for keeps This feelin your feelin is in to deep Everydays a new day we're feelin to weak It's Passin me by week by week As I take my drugs an I hit my peak I slit my wrists an go to sleep Press that button like it's on repeat Life sucks in all honesty I honestly just wanna leave Bleedin from my main artery Look at the dark it's the best part of things Not the love lust or diamond rings Break me down put me up in a sling I'm trippin I'm livin in a dream It's seldom I'm losin self esteem I wanna leave this earth what a selfish me Keep on movin forward so selflessly Anyone out there anyone listening Gotta push through even when you're not glistening No one ever cares till you end up missing Show up out of nowhere like you miss me I'm someone who can leave without a trace dead an gone no one remembers the face Feelin ashamed life's a disgrace I don't know what else there is to say I'm in pain an it's plain as day Watch my blood as it drains away See the color start fadin to gray Watch my soul leave my body today Mom I'm so sorry but I had to change I know you didn't wanna see me pass away But that's just me yea that's just me