Contemplating

Feels like i've been struggling with pain all my life Got to a point 2 years ago I would cut myself with a knife I'm okay now though but i'm still scarred Tell me why livin life is so damn fuckin hard Just like everyone else I had people come and go Got to a point where it became a show Everytime a year goes by my mind it will grow Never thought rappin would lead me to a pro I'm sorry my past friends That you had to deal and put up with me But I was stressed as f*ck Stressin to try and succeed you see I wasn't makin great music back then But fake niggas act like they knew me back then Had a new look on the world since the age of ten You've never knew me since i picked up that pen Feel like i've been locked inside the devils den Sadness and anger mixed emotions how i been Started rappin mid 2016 without any flow Who knew I would then go ahead and date a hoe I'm just tryna do me hustlin on the low Loved the times when I would play in the snow Why do you hate If i just wake up and drink my coffee Damn do i hate those inncorrect assumptions awfully Make my music to cope with my lack of feelin jolly Stopped givin a f*ck about shit I could pop a molly aye Feels like i've been struggling with pain all my life Got to a point 2 years ago I would cut myself with a knife I'm okay now though but i'm still scarred Tell me why livin life is so damn fuckin hard Just like everyone else I had people come and go Got to a point where it became a show Everytime a year goes by my mind it will grow Never thought rappin would lead me to a pro