Blow Up

I don't know how to not blow up All this anger in my body, Imma throw up Wishin' that my temper would just slow up Maybe I just need to go and grow up I don't know how to not blow up All this anger in my body, Imma throw up Wishin' that my temper would just slow up Maybe I just need to go and grow up Lack control, I'm on a roll Of spewing venom out my throat This negativity that has been crawlin' right into me Black coated centipede, look what it did to me Now that my heart is on fire Smaller things sparkin' the flame to grow higher Don't need a lighter, I do not require 'Cause anyone, anything now the supplier The sadness in my soul replaced with the malice My cup runneth over then spill out the chalice I'm sippin' on bitterness, chill in the palace While I'm watchin' rage quickly unbalance I Know what you're thinkin' If I know I'm drowning then why do I sink in I find that enlightenment isn't so easy Despite being aware, the demon defeats me I don't know how to not blow up All this anger in my body, Imma throw up Wishin' that my temper would just slow up Maybe I just need to go and grow up I don't know how to not blow up All this anger in my body, Imma throw up Wishin' that my temper would just slow up Maybe I just need to go and grow up I just need a rest from this temper in my chest I just need a rest from this temper in my chest I just need a rest from this temper in my chest But I can't get a rest No No I did not choose to be this way Pushin' family out with the words I say As reaction to actions that's minor in hindsight I don't understand why I can't get my mind right I'm thankful I've not gotten violent And every time, someway I've managed to fight it But what if I tried it? And it's more than a pillow or wall that I might hit Tried all the methods, I've tried to hold back But I can't hold my tongue when I feel it attack I'm just blinded, reminded of how not misguided I really am But it's the opposite I just be hawkin' spit Why do you love me? Mistreated you many times Why don't you shove me? How do you tolerate? My mouth every day when I'm spewing this hate 'cause I don't know how to not blow up All this anger in my body, Imma throw up Wishin' that my temper would just slow up Maybe I just need to go and grow up I don't know how to not blow up All this anger in my body, Imma throw up Wishin' that my temper would just slow up Maybe I just need to go and grow up I just need a rest from this temper in my chest I just need a rest from this temper in my chest I just need a rest from this temper in my chest But I can't get a rest No No