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Detached I'm floatin' Like I'm out In the ocean Cold breeze No Jacket I search for joy but can't have it Detached Just floatin' Like I'm out In the ocean Cold wave No Jacket Even in a sea of people, I'm stranded It's not all bad if you still breathin' That's what I tell myself when I'm alone thinkin' When it gets too quiet and I hear screamin' From the voice inside tryna tell me at night That I will never get close to the goal I'm seekin' And everybody thinks that I'm stupid for dreamin' No one really cares what I say when I'm speakin' I'm self-centered, boring, there's a million reasons Why I don't have friends Well I do have friends but you know what I mean At times I feel alone when I roll 10 deep Like I'm in a crowded room and it's still just me The time drags on, not really slow or fast But I say that I'm fine if anybody wanna ask Walk inside a room and I don't know what to do 'Cause everything is empty when I feel like this dude See I'm floating, I'm existing, I don't feel like I'm alive So I do a lot of nothing just to try and pass the time Play games Watch vids Try to write Just quit Go eat 'Cause I'm bored Get fat just so I can hate myself more Every day on a loop, that I just can't shake I guess I'm just in a funk, that I can't break I'm Detached I'm floatin' Like I'm out In the ocean Cold breeze No Jacket I search for joy but can't have it Detached Just floatin' Like I'm out In the ocean Cold wave No Jacket Even in a sea of people, I'm stranded I walk inside the room and I'm not really there Look around and realize that nobody cares Not my friends, not the fam, not the one that I love Isolation got me stuck in a hole that I dug 3rd person livin' when I'm in this zone It's like I wanna talk but also be alone 'Cause I don't wanna be a bother And I know that I'm a bother So I just eat, sleep, waste time, repeat Till my soul gets inspired to go vent on the beat I don't want you to worry cause I'll be just fine It's just a lil rain cloud tryna cover my shine It'll pass in time like it always does But not for good cause it always comes Back when I'm overwhelmed with life Cause I have it good, but it's hard to describe Sometimes I feel like I'm on a treadmill Walkin' towards nothin', like a standstill Time runnin' out cause the days fly by And my opportunities tellin' me bye-bye I have dreams that my sound will fly straight up high But I can't go show what I'm made of I'm Stuck working this damn nine to five Tryna make it in rap and tryna balance my time Being a friend, being a boyfriend and a son all at once Tryna manage finance and not blow through my funds So I can buy a car and a house with a lawn Stress killin' me from the dusk to the dawn I don't wanna waste this light of mine But sometimes I feel I can't let it shine I don't wanna waste this life of mine But sometimes I feel it's not worth the time I'm Detached I'm floatin' Like I'm out In the ocean Cold breeze No Jacket I search for joy but can't have it Detached Just floatin' Like I'm out In the ocean Cold wave No Jacket Even in a sea of people, I'm stranded Alone again I'm alone again Feel alone again So alone again Alone again I'm alone again Feel alone again So alone again Lost