A War Between Two Minds

I'm as blind as I seem Cause all of the dreams That I really cared about Are gone with black wings And I'm probably More suicidal than ever now Knock me down and toss me around Don't wanna help myself off the ground Please just push me aside I know I'll die when everything's falling down Don't start with your ways of making me say That I'm not truly alone I'll begin to cry and go back inside Where I truly belong Don't wanna believe the lies That I'm not below what's listed above Don't wanna think of the things That you say I should really think of I don't wanna live today Nobody ever knew I don't wanna die this way I know something's always new But I just can't seem to find a reason For myself to move on I don't wanna die this way Still always in vain Now I'm stuck in my room With a looming sense of doom and nothing to prove I know I'm worthless my feelings exhumed Waiting for the dismal night to resume So maybe I give up the bout The drought Stop my search for a simpler way out And force my kind and I to fall out So not a single soul would ever doubt When I don't show up for my life the next day Cause I'm still supposedly waiting at home Not even crying I'm just not dying I've felt this way too long I'm alone Don't wanna live a little longer I know I still have to try Don't wanna fight for my life Is it worth it or should I die I don't wanna live today Nobody ever knew I don't wanna die this way I know something's always new But I just can't seem to find a reason For myself to move on I don't wanna die this way Still always in vain I don't wanna live today Nobody ever knew I don't wanna die this way I know something's always new But I just can't seem to find a reason For myself to move on I don't wanna die this way Still always in vain There won't be a time I'll think I'll ever be more than okay Nothing can change my mind inside, no matter what they say I'll live my life two steps behind but before I die I should sort this mess made by a war between two minds There won't be a time I'll think I'll ever be more than okay Nothing can change my mind inside, no matter what they say I'll live my life two steps behind but before I die I should sort this mess made by a war between two minds There won't be a time I'll think I'll ever be more than okay Nothing can change my mind inside, no matter what they say I'll live my life two steps behind but before I die I should sort this mess made by a war between two minds