Jousting (feat. Levi Hinson)

The way you sing a song, a note, for anyone There's light inside the world that finds its home in spite of you I feel like eating with my demons My dreams feel like a seed to feed on Pesky little secrets are the death of me I swear it's over convoluted hubris Nuisances incisions fixing far and gone conclusions And it's scary, I've been this way a couple February's The open ended nature of blank canvas Overwhelmingly compiled to a brim a hill of glory or impatience But insincerely beckon call a ghost of self to fake it Listen closely, I'm simply done with calculated maintenance This casting call for greatness held me hostage in its basement For a season and I feel it still, I call it conscience calling But deconstructing air inside your lungs can feel like falling Down wells, and hell if I know keeping score was all I knew for years And picking pockets of exuberance as an exercise in facing fear Was detrimental until it wasn't I'll sing a song for anyone Find homes in where I don't belong And home is only learning, growing, feeling so sincere I'm wide awake, I'm fully grown, the moon takes it from here Said "it is what it is, and it's not what it wasn't" And it's not what I thought Angels and devils resting inside the deck as I shuffle it I could play all the cards I want But I'll still be tussling Heart like the bushes in the hurricane rippin' and rustlin' Memories plugging up shit in abundance This life wasn't ever meant to be signs and wonders These skeletons in my closet weren't meant to be rummaged Realizing that my heart was never meant to be tungsten If life was on the clock, I guarantee I'd be punched out now I'm a number on the board, I'm a face in the crowd I'm a poster for my demons and the way that they joust me I'm off the horse, I'm on the ground I'm drunk on my porch, I'm thinking of some ways out I'm peering off the ledge, it's a long way down Am I brave enough to face it, every time the gray sounds? A slave to my anxious, and the long way to pace that I'm bound to Down The way you sing a song, a note, for anyone There's light inside the world that finds its home in spite of you And home is only learning, growing, feeling so sincere I'm wide awake, I'm fully grown, the moon takes it from here