THINKING TOO MUCH

When they knock, do you let 'em in Open up and let 'em know what's been happening Nah, me neither, I lock it down I throw it out, I hope it drowns, see I don't talk much, that's an inconvenience I'm going through a lot, but I hope that they don't see it I say things out of anger, but I really don't mean it There's a monster inside me, and you don't wanna feed it So I lock the safe, and throw the keys away I keep my thoughts to myself, and say, "it'll be okay" But buried deep inside you know I'm really afraid and I don't wanna hurt you, so I push you away Don't be sad, wipe the tears from your face There'll come a time, when you see beautiful days A good life, and a family, you'll have all of these things I wish I could give that to you, I'm trying to change, but My whole life is a mess My heart's been broken, and my brain is a wreck You don't want these problems, so move on to the next, yeah It's for the best, my life is a mess I've been thinking too much But I don't want to give up, but I don't want to give up I've been thinking too much, or maybe not enough But I don't want to give up, I don't want to lose us At this point I gotta see things through I'm still young, but I got lots to do I moved on, but I'm still feeling blue You're gone, but I'll get back up soon In the future, I hope things change I wanna live a free life, avoid all the pain But right now it's a struggle, I'm going insane My demons, on my mind, attacking my brain It's a long life, but short at the same time I wanna make the most of it before it flies by They don't understand me now, but you know why I gotta do what I love in this lifetime But your past life, don't let it define Who you are now and all the things you do right Give yourself some credit, there's no time to rewind If you look ahead, I promise you will be fine, yeah I've been thinking too much But I don't want to give up But I don't want to give up I've been thinking too much Maybe not enough But I don't want to give up I don't want to lose us I've been thinking too much Maybe not enough But I don't want to give up But I don't want to give up I've been THINKING TOO MUCH Maybe not enough But I don't want to give up I don't want to lose us