Lost in Thoughts

I hate being so nihilistic Seeing no faith in nothing But being so optimistic Dead end towards the end Gotta get it in my head I gotta live my life Cause soon I'll be fuckin' dead I can hardly breathe I can hardly see How you into me How you gonna be happy with someone like me I'll do my very best hopefully But while I'm out here flowing and coping I'm building a coffin I don't know when it's gonna be finished My reason for living is you, yeah we know that Wait til I slip up and blow everything we both stacked You dont know that I'm a psycho Murder on my mind Took two lives in the night, though I don't wanna talk much about it But you might know Younger me is killer me Older, I just hide now But I'll never know who I am I'm a two-in-one package which I'll never understand The idea that you love me would have never reached my head Had you never told me you loved me back I would be dead Look at me Now look at you You're a goddess I'm just below you Now look at me Now look at you You're a goddess I'm just below you I need you by my side Please don't let our magic die I just need a bit more time I just need a bit more time I just need you by my side Guarding angel Help me fight So we can both survive 'Til we kiss this cruel world goodbye