I Don't Wanna Die

In the depths of despair, I'm lost can't find my way Dark clouds overhead, my minds in disarray I lie and say I'm fine, I promise I'm okay I'll carry this pain in my heart until I pass away My hearts a shattered mirror, reflecting all my pain Each day's a heavy burden, like shackles on my chain Searching for the sun but all I found was rain I wanna rid myself of all these thoughts in my brain I don't wanna die I just don't want to live In this world so cold, it's hard to forgive I'll search for the light in the darkest of dives I don't wanna die, I just want to survive (I don't wanna die I just don't want to live) (Cause the more I try the less I get back) (I don't wanna die I just don't want to live) (Cause in my twenty years I've never felt a thing) I can't even sleep I just lay in my bed Stare at the ceiling with these thoughts in my head Think of all the hate and hurtful words said Everyone would be better off if I was dead All these late night thoughts yo they got me going crazy I've been putting on a fake smile so often lately Message to my girlfriend I love you so much baby They pushed me down you picked me up and saved me Lick myself in my room, music's my escape I'm ugly, I'm weak, and I'm outta shape Write this song while I'm crying my eyes out If this is the end, I'm sorry goodbye now