reminiscing

Yeah...yeah, let me talk about that shit I just been up in my mind (Heh...) Stuck up in my mind, yeah I been trapped inside the past I been wondering where you at I been living in the past, I can't make these amends I been reminiscing every night, I can't pretend I just landed in my mind, I think I made my descent Demons everywhere I look, so I done armed my defense I need someone to make this make sense I been stuck up on this loop, it's like this cycle do not miss I done felt this way before, now I know I'm getting sick Why the hell would I go gamble if I know it ain't no hit They can't even play me for a fool Definitely making money and I'm definitely tryna choose Definitely tryna figure out what I cannot lose I been setting boundaries, there's some things that I won't do There's some things that I won't say You can't even handle it, I know you won't behave I been building habits, so I know I won't be late Ain't no "L"s from the process, so I know it can't be fake Just know you've been on my mind Just been inflicted with a DOT This a damage over time Feeling like I'm burning up alive Hot outside I might just go inside Cold inside I might just go outside You know I'm just in it for the ride Hoping I don't crash no suicide Living every day like it's the last, it's do or die I been living in the past, I can't make these amends I been reminiscing every night, I can't pretend I just landed in my mind, I think I made my descent Demons everywhere I look, so I done armed my defense I need someone to make this make sense I been stuck up on this loop, it's like this cycle do not miss I done felt this way before, now I know I'm getting sick Why the hell would I go gamble if I know it ain't no hit I can't even tell you how many times that I've done tried Tried to get the truth, but I just know it's gone be lies Feeling these emotions, I just bury them inside Tried to spread my wings, but they don't want to see me fly I know they love to see me cry Yeah, it's been a minute, still won't look me in the eye Got so many questions, I can't help but wonder why This shit fucking up my conscience, I can't help but just to sigh Got me fucking up the function when they try to ask me why I be holding back these punches, that's why I'm always so high Keep my mental doing crunches, you can find me in the sky Daydreaming to the sounds and the melodies of time I been living in the past, I can't make these amends I been reminiscing every night, I can't pretend I just landed in my mind, I think I made my descent Demons everywhere I look, so I done armed my defense I need someone to make this make sense I been stuck up on this loop, it's like this cycle do not miss I done felt this way before, now I know I'm getting sick Why the hell would I go gamble if I know it ain't no hit I been living in the past, I can't make these amends I been reminiscing every night, I can't pretend I just landed in my mind, I think I made my descent Demons everywhere I look, so I done armed my defense I need someone to make this make sense I been stuck up on this loop, it's like this cycle do not miss I done felt this way before, now I know I'm getting sick Why the hell would I go gamble if I know it ain't no hit