Happening

Oh my It's like 8pm right now I don't wanna lose myself again i don't know what's happening to me Really want to know if i do find out i'll feel more positive I see all the hands that's been clapping i don't know which one is happy for me I know all the struggle been growing me up same time it made me lonely Woke up with tears in my eyes and i asked myself what's happening to me Feel like the years of just bottling it up has been taking a toil on me Really i'm running i run from myself and run from my thoughts homie Really i'm greatul for some of my friends because they feel like family too me (I nor really know how i wan take explain am, i'm really bad at explaining myself with my feelings and everything) I know they talking behind me I find it really exciting I just retired from whining Because i was just wasting my time God told me boy it's perfect timing I'm trying to put all of my past behind me Putting it all behind me No fit afford anymore wrong bonding I feel they all the same it keeps me wondering Yes i got love to give but love ain't for me And everytime i give it out i'm always getting pain I see that my family's got me sometimes i feel like they really don't want me around Could i be wrong could i be right? I feel out of line i need me a sign Part of me really just want to be honest That part of me probably dey underlying "I don't think you understand what i'm saying" I don't wanna lose myself again i don't know what's happening to me Really want to know if i do find out i'll feel more positive I see all the hands that's been clapping i don't know which one is happy for me I know all the struggle been growing me up same time it made me lonely Woke up with tears in my eyes and i asked myself what's happening to me Feel like the years of just bottling it up has been taking a toil on me Really i'm running i run from myself and run from my thoughts homie Really i'm greatul for some of my friends because they feel like family too me I don't want to lose myself again